My Favourite Pictures and Memories from May

Hi everyone!

 

Here’s another post that’s part of the ESG: My favourite picture of the month May swap on Swap-Bot.

 
First up is this selfie I took at GeekFest! I absolutely loved this look! The synthetic dreads were made by Karmic Dreads and I’d highly recommend her work! The circlet is one of my own creations that I am also selling in various colours. 

 

Next up is this photo of me with a cute cat I met in Mellville! I went shopping with my new friend Krisne, and one of the charity shops there is also a cat sanctuary!

 

I also got engaged to my boyfriend of 5 years! This is our engagement announcement photo.

 

And lastly, I had a great shoot with Emmy Photography. This is one of my favourite photos from the day!

 

I also had an amazing shoot with Xpressio – Photo Artistry that I can’t share with you yet, as it is for a magazine!

 

I hope you’ve enjoyed hearing about my month!

 

 

J

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My Favourite Pictures and Memories from March

Hello everyone!

 

Here’s another post that’s part of the ESG: My favourite picture of the month March swap on Swap-Bot.

 

I handed in my leather bound research report, which means that I am done with university! And I got 70% for my research paper! I was so shocked that I got such a high mark, as I had to complete my research report while still suffering from adrenal fatigue.

 

On 4th March, I had my jewellery stall at Ink & Iron, and decided to enter my new back tattoo into the tattoo competition and we won best half back colour female tattoo! My artist was over the moon, because it was the first tattoo award he’s received. He definitely deserved it! I got really sunburnt though – ouch!

 

I had a really fun first shoot with Xpressio – Photo Artistry, but her husky, Sky, kept on photobombing us. Here’s one of my favourite bloopers from the shoot!


I went to a cosplay picnic on 18th March and had lots of fun. I was excited to wear by Little Sister cosplay from the game series Bioshock. We got some really cool photos of it. Thanks to Muller Time Photography for this shot.

 

My favourite memory from the entire month was when I went to Attrition Event: Resident Awesome on 26th March. It was the first Attrition event this year and it was so much fun! But what made it my favourite is that two of my non-Goth friends, Bree and Kalyca, went with and I got to Goth them up for the day! Didn’t they look stunning?!

 

I hope you’ve enjoyed hearing about my month! Sorry I haven’t been blogging lately.  I have lots of big things happening that I can’t reveal yet!

 

 

J

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Megara: The story of my tattoo

One of the questions I get asked the most is “what does the tattoo on your arm mean?”. While I can answer it in one sentence, that doesn’t even begin to explain what it means to me. So for those of you who have been wondering, I am about to tell her full story, in the most detail I have ever told.

 

Before I start, just in case you haven’t seen it, this is the tattoo I’m talking about:

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Her name is Megara, and she’s been with me for as long as I can remember.

 

I have always had a very vivid and fantastical imagination. So vivid that long ago, I used to see the creations of my imagination in real life. One of these beings was a forest nymph named Megara. Megara was my age, and my imaginary friend, if you wish to call it that. Every night when I went to bed, I would escape from the real world and enter a magical world which I saw through her eyes. She was a little girl, entrusted as the forest guardian, even though she was barely 5 years old. This forest was a special forest, where all the animals lived in harmony under her protection. Megara was gifted a beautiful wooden bow and arrows from the forest spirit in order to protect the magical realm she lived in. She spent most of her days exploring with her wolf companion, having fun and playing with the other animals in the forest, or washing her beautiful long hair in the crystal clear river.

 

As I got older, so did she. As I changed, so did she. I remember it clearly, the day she first got her antlers. It was just after I had moved back to South Africa, aged 12. She had to protect the forest from a swarm of hunters who came to kill everything in their path. It was horrible. Many of her animal companions were killed. But in the end she was victorious. As a reward for her loyalty to the forest and its creatures, the forest spirit granted her antlers – then only two small stumps protruding from her head that looked quite silly. They got larger and more beautiful over the years, as did she.

 

As I went through hellish teenage years with the worst kind of loneliness and even worse “friends”, she was always there. She gave me strength at my darkest time and was the only thing keeping me alive for quite some time when I thought I had nothing to live for. And then, suddenly, she was gone.

 

I couldn’t understand why. I lost my ability to dream. It was as if she had abandoned me, and eventually as if she had never existed.  In hindsight, I know that it was due to the medication I was put on – I was wrongly diagnosed with bipolar and heavily medicated to the point of being nothing more than a zombie. For years, I had to find another way to cope with my struggles. Then one day, she returned to me, older than she was than she left – matching my age as she always had. I know now that this was because I had stopped my medication, and was finally a happier person than I’d been in a long time. While I don’t dream often, I still see her when I close my eyes. I can travel back to her world as I used to in my youth and escape from my troubles.

 

For a long time I wanted to commemorate her return by getting a tattoo of her as she is now – in her most beautiful state. It took years for someone to finally draw her correctly. Unfortunately I can’t draw and it’s not that easy to explain how someone’s facial features look. But finally she was drawn precisely as she is, and I got her permanently inked onto my skin, so that she will always be with me wherever I go.

 

In December, I decided to do a photoshoot where I could become her for a day. Sadly I didn’t have antlers or ears exactly like hers, but it was close enough. I’m so happy with how the photos came out!

 

Model: Jossie Ayame (me)
Photo: Annari’s Photographic Endeavours
Circlet: Ayame Designs (me)
Antlers:  SIN BIN: Graphic and Fashion Design
Corset: Arwen Garmentry
Hooded capelet: Epic Armoury

 

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I hope you have enjoyed these photos and my story of my tattoo.

 

 

J

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